Venting

Hello,

Long time, no post again. Yes, I know. I'm probably the worst blogger ever. If there was an award I would most likely win it. Although I haven't been posting here, I've been posting weekly on YouTube (except for last week). The past few months have been very hectic, draining, and stressful. To top it all off, I broke the only camera that I have and last night I got in a car accident.



Sometimes I feel so down about certain things, but I always have to remember that it could be a lot worse. I am very blessed to be alive and in relatively good health. But you can't blame me for being a bit down. It is fun to work on your passion.

I feel like I've waited forever to start my YouTube channel. I waited mainly because of my lack of self-esteem and the confidence I needed to put myself out there. It's hard to work hard on a project then to have others tear it apart. Watching YouTubers today, such as Zoe Sugg, they seem so confident and happy. They are doing what they love and their dreams and accomplishments seem so inspiring. No, my object isn't to be massively popular. But wouldn't it be amazing to get to know a bunch of people that you have things in common with while sharing ideas, and having people learn from you?

This blog and YouTube channel are passion projects that I want to take very seriously. Unfortunately, I'm not in the position to work on it how I would like. If I had it my way, I would be creating my own magazine, interviewing Marc Jacobs, going to fashion shows, creating a skin care line (BIG GOAL), DIYing everything under the sun, creating new and novel products, interacting with new people, traveling the world, making people happy through my talents, etc... I would love to do this every day for the rest of my life.

Okay, I feel so much better getting all of this out. Sometimes you just need to vent a little. All of these setbacks are just preparing me for something bigger and better. Instead of having this "woe is me" moment, I'm going to work hard to make something happen.


Do any of you feel like I do? C'mon, I know I'm not alone.